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Vash—

( love, please, do not do this to yourself —

his reaction is near-immediate, when his brother pulls away from him he's turning to face him properly, reaching to wrap his arms around him and pull him in close; he knows better than vash what awaits them both back at july if they were to return, but as has been mentioned before, vash would be the one in need of catching up.

in need of realizing just how much devastation they've both caused because they're both so stubborn.

he tucks his brother's face into the hollow of his throat, chin resting at the top of his head as one hand smooths over the line of his spine, as soothing as he thinks he can be. ) Dear heart … I'm not going anywhere as long as we're here, mm? ( he shifts just as much as he needs to press a soft kiss to the very center of the other's forehead. ) I'm not sure how much control we have over how long we stay here, but for the moment, I can promise you this much.

There is nowhere else I would rather be than here with you. My heart goes wherever you go.

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[ It's both comforting and not, what his brother says. It does some to soothe the heavy weight in his chest, but what does more is the physical presence of his twin enveloping all of his senses. He noses against Knives' throat, his arms shifting to wrap tightly around him the best he can, their legs tangling together. ]

I know you aren't going anywhere. [ There's a pause, and a hand pressed to Knives' back shifts into a fist. ] While we're here.

It was the worst everything had been, what I remember last. What if we just go back to that? Not listening to each other.

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( he would hold him like this for the rest of their natural lives if he could, this close, close to his heart just to ensure he stays just like this; safe, enveloped, kept within the bubble they've made for themselves that nothing else could even think of touching.

something in him goes just a little bit rigid when he says what he does next, when he gives rise to the notion of what he remembers from before he'd woken up here. nai has long since deduced that their timelines are different, that much is true, and he doesn't — he doesn't think —

he sighs out a small note, something that catches just behind his teeth, that one hand still smoothing along the line of his spine. ) There's nothing saying we will. ( but there isn't anything saying they won't, either, and he knows that. )

What if we were to go back with our memories of this place? And how much better we were here?

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[ He feels so small, laying here. Their legs tangle together and Vash can feel the moment that Nai stiffens, the buzzing in his ears only getting louder in the moment. The sound of his brother's voice soothes him just a little and Vash exhales a breath that's almost as much of a physical shudder as it is a sound.

The thought does seem to do something to calm the worries raging in his chest, but his grip on Nai is no less desperate as he does his best to merge with the warmth of his brother.

They could. They could work together instead of being at each other's proverbial throats with their separate ideals. Together maybe they really could make NML into the paradise for themselves and their kind AND the humans. ]

Only if you'll be there, Nai. Promise.

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( he really doesn't mean to stiffen up the way he does, but at the thought of what awaits them back home — what awaits vash — it makes his stomach drop like a stone through water, throat thick with all the things he hasn't yet said and all the things he needs to say to his brother. just because it means being honest, and he deserves that much. but.

he can't bring himself to. not yet, and if his own fear is what ends up driving them apart again, well. he'll have done it himself, won't he? all over again.

let him think that they can work together. let him think that they can fix everything that nai has broken. let him think there's still something salvageable because maybe there had been here, and maybe they've come a long, long way from when he'd first arrived.

but there is no going back home. it's a thought that makes his throat tighten and the backs of his eyes ache, but he simply buries his nose in his brother's hair and stays there. ) I promise. Where you go … I go.

( liar.

liar.

liar. )

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[ If it were anyone else, maybe Vash wouldn't have noticed the subtle body language. Maybe he would have let it pass. Instead, he shifts, carefully moving his head to look at Knives through his eyelashes and messy mop of hair. Nearly identical blue eyes watch Knives carefully as Vash shifts the way he's curled into his brother to settle a hand against his brother's neck, his thumb tracing over the curve of his cheekbone, just below his beautymark.

He knows, but he doesn't ask. There's a moment or two where he just watches, saying nothing and then he moves to press their foreheads together and closes his eyes. It's such a similar, familiar sort of action, one that Vash finds comfort in and one he hopes his brother finds soothing as well.

I'm sorry, Nai. ]

It's okay.